Don't Let Me Catch You Crying

 You say that you care, in passing, when we talk.

It fills me with happiness and it makes me feel

strong; like I’m on top of the world. It makes me

smile, and I laugh a little because you’re the best

person I’ve known.

But then you go offline all day. You want to play

your game, and you can’t be bothered to message

me back. Your words, my ink. You care, but you

can’t even be bothered to talk to me, the person you
"love".

I feel more and more alone as each day goes by.
I get scared; I can feel you slipping away as the

hours tick by and I don’t know what to do. The

logical thing is to talk to you about it, I know.

But I tried.

I tried to talk to you. You had a panic attack.

And then told me it was my fault. And you didn’t

understand that it was me crying out for you. That

I was begging you to come back and talk to me like

we used to.

Darling, my health is deteriorating, and you don’t care.

I could die soon, and you don’t care enough to send me

a single message.

You would know, if you sent a message, asking how I

am.

Darling, I’ll be six foot under soon.

And I better not catch you crying -

I better not catch you saying you miss me

You had your chance

You walked away from it.